Lexa
Just call me Veronica Mars
Idk if this is actually insomnia or whatnot, but I've had serious trouble sleeping. I'd estimate an average of two to three hours a night at the very very most (and piss poor sleep at that; the kind where you are kiiiinda awake, but kinda not, and don't feel rested at all), if I sleep at all. It's been going on for about three weeks now, and it's starting to leave me delirious and unfocused, which is not a good feeling. I'm usually my best for about six hours of the day after I wake up from whatever little "catnap" I got that night, then I start getting woozy. If I try to take a nap, or go to bed at any hour, I don't fall asleep.
Night between Sunday and Monday I slept for almost a full six hours, and was pretty much jumping for joy when I woke up and only felt exhausted, not delirious and high, but apparently that was a one-time occurrence, since it's now 3am and I can't sleep again.
I'm pretty sure I know what's causing this, since I'm unusually stressed out these days. School obviously is the number one culprit, and I believe I've mentioned in ls chat a few times that I'm at risk of being booted the fuck out of the country, which has me all knotted up. Worrying about that, handling a massive load of school work, and other stuff. But still, this not sleeping bullshit is getting to grate on my last nerve. It's getting to the point where I'm so sleepy, I'll land face-down on the bed and think, "NOW I'll fall asleep," but then somehow, despite the exhaustion and being so sleepy I see spots in my vision, I'll lie awake for hours. I'm having issues remembering what I was doing the day before, and sometimes it feels kinda like I'm hallucinating - though I'm really not, I'm just trying to describe how shitty this feels. I'm about quarter of an inch away from seeing Tyler Durden, here.
I'd rather not get drugs to fix this, because I fucking hate drugs - not to mention my insurance here is so minimal it covers practically nada - but I'm starting to think it's pretty much my only option left.
Night between Sunday and Monday I slept for almost a full six hours, and was pretty much jumping for joy when I woke up and only felt exhausted, not delirious and high, but apparently that was a one-time occurrence, since it's now 3am and I can't sleep again.
I'm pretty sure I know what's causing this, since I'm unusually stressed out these days. School obviously is the number one culprit, and I believe I've mentioned in ls chat a few times that I'm at risk of being booted the fuck out of the country, which has me all knotted up. Worrying about that, handling a massive load of school work, and other stuff. But still, this not sleeping bullshit is getting to grate on my last nerve. It's getting to the point where I'm so sleepy, I'll land face-down on the bed and think, "NOW I'll fall asleep," but then somehow, despite the exhaustion and being so sleepy I see spots in my vision, I'll lie awake for hours. I'm having issues remembering what I was doing the day before, and sometimes it feels kinda like I'm hallucinating - though I'm really not, I'm just trying to describe how shitty this feels. I'm about quarter of an inch away from seeing Tyler Durden, here.
I'd rather not get drugs to fix this, because I fucking hate drugs - not to mention my insurance here is so minimal it covers practically nada - but I'm starting to think it's pretty much my only option left.