Nvm I found a translation:
æ£å½“我çå¼€åŒçœ¼ è¸å…¥è¿™ä¸ªä¸–ç•Œ
As I open both eyes, step into this world
妈妈给我生命 现在让我自生自ç
Mom gave me life, now let me live and die as please
这让我æ惧 在我的眼里æ¯ä¸ªäººéƒ½æˆ´ç€é¢å…·
This lets me feel fear, in my eyes every person all hide a mask
回想过去 éš¾é“ç”Ÿå‘½å°±æ˜¯è¿™æ ·å»¶ç»ï¼Ÿ
Remembering the past, is life really perpetuated like this?
我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了
I smoke cigarette until my lungs are black
å°±åƒæ•´ä¸ªç¤¾ä¼šè¢«äººå¿ƒç¬¼ç½©ç€ 它也是黑的
Just like the whole society that's covered by people's motives, it's also black
我背ç€å®¿å‘½çš„åå—架
I carry the cross of life
也渴望Power, paper and respect
Also hope for Power, paper and respect
我想这大概就是human nature
I think this probably is human nature
佛家说 烦æ¼å³æ˜¯è©æ 我暂且ä¸æ
Buddhists say, worries should be brought up by the Buddha(??not too sure the meaning), I won't bring it up for now
我倒是希望能够回到æ¯ä½“
Instead I wish to be able to return to mother's body
è€å¦ˆå¯¹ä¸èµ· æˆ‘æ—¶å¸¸æŠŠä½ æ°”å¾—è·ºè„š
Sorry Mom, I often make mad enough to stomp feet
ä½ è¯´ä½ åŽæ‚”当åˆæ²¡æœ‰æŠŠæˆ‘å •æŽ‰
You say you regret you didn't abort me back then
æ¯å½“我放å¦å›žå®¶ 放下那沉é‡çš„背包
Every time I return home after school, put down that heavy shoulderbag
å®¶é‡Œç©ºæ— ä¸€äºº åªæ®‹ç•™ç€ä½ 香水的味é“
Home empty without a single person, only your perfume's smell pathetically remains
é‚£æ—¶æˆ‘çŸ¥é“ ä½ é‚£å¤©æ™šä¸Šåˆè¦åŠ ç
At the time I know, you were working overtime again that night
我打开冰箱 拿出微波炉åƒå†°çš„晚é¤
I open the fridge, take out microwave frozen dinner
è€çˆ¸åœ¨å‡Œæ™¨ä¸¤ç‚¹é’Ÿé†‰é†ºé†ºåœ°å›žå®¶
Dad returns home stinking drunk at 2am
我从ç¡æ¢¦ä¸é†’æ¥ åªå¬åˆ°ä½ 们在åµæž¶
I awake from my dreams, only to hear you guys arguing
我没有办法专心é¢å¯¹ç¬¬äºŒå¤©çš„考试
I cannot focus my attention to the test next day
è€å¸ˆä»–ä¸å–œæ¬¢æˆ‘ 我也ä¸å–œæ¬¢è€å¸ˆ
Teacher he doesn't like me, I also don't like teacher
æˆ‘è®¨åŽŒç©¿åˆ¶æœ æˆ‘è®¨åŽŒå¦æ ¡çš„制度
I hate wearing uniform, I hate the rules of school
我讨厌è®å¯¼ä¸»ä»»çš„嘴脸 讨厌被æŸç¼š
I hate discipliner's face, hate being restricted
That's true
That's true
很多人ä¸å±‘我的æ€åº¦ 他们说我太cool
Many people can't take my attitude, they say I'm too cool
è¦å¯Ÿä¸çˆ½æˆ‘都曾将我逮æ•
Police dislikes me and have arrested me before
I don't give a fuck about 人家说什么
I don't give a fuck about what other people say
他们想说什么就说什么 但是他们算什么
They can say whatever they want to say, but what are they anyway
没有è°æœ‰æƒåˆ©æ‹¿ä»–çš„æ ‡å‡†è¡¡é‡æˆ‘
No one has the power to use their standard to measure me
主宰是我自己 éšä¾¿äººå®¶å¦‚何想 我还是我
The host is me myself, regardless of what other people think, I'm still me
爱钱的女人åªç»™å‡¯å摸
Women who love money only lets Johns touch
ä¸æ‡‚得用ä¿é™©å¥—的人别嫌å©å多
People who don't know about condoms shouldn't say too many children
金钱力é‡è™½å¤§ å´ç”Ÿä¸å¸¦æ¥æ»ä¸å¸¦èµ°
Though money's power is big, yet can't bring with you at birth can't take with you at death
ç´§æ¡ç€åŒæ‹³çš„人们何时能æ¾å¼€æ‰‹ï¼Ÿ
When can people who tightly hold two fists release their hands?
**Life's a struggle æ—¥å还è¦è¿‡
**Life's a struggle, life still goes on
å“å°å–œæ€’å“€ä¹ä¹‹åŽ åˆæ˜¯æ•°ä¸å°½çš„troubles
After tasting joy, anger, sadness, happiness, even more countless troubles
Everyday 有多少问题è¦åŽ»é¢å¯¹
Everyday have how many questions that needs to be faced
有多少夜 痛苦烦æ¼ç€ä½ æ— æ³•å…¥ç¡â€¦
Have how many nights of painful frustrations that lets you unable to sleep...
Repeat
法åºä¸¥è‚ƒçš„空气逼得我快ä¸èƒ½å‘¼å¸
Courtroom's somber air makes me almost unable to breathe
当时é¢ä¸´ç€ç»ˆç”Ÿç›‘ç¦çš„我开始åçœ
At the time, me whose facing life behind bars starts to rethink
é“æ æ†ä¹‹åŽåˆæ˜¯ä¸ªæˆªç„¶ä¸åŒçš„景象
After metal bars is another different scenario
刑犯们眼神ä¸çœ‹ä¸åˆ°ä¸€ç‚¹å’Œå¹³çš„气象
In the eyes of convicts can't see any traces of peace
仅有一寸çŸçš„铅笔 写的是监狱风云
Only have an inch short pencil, written are prison's life
日记上æ绘的ä¸æ˜¯ç¾Žå¥½çš„户外风景
What's described in the idary is not the wonderful outside scenery
自由在他们眼里æ‰æ˜¯æ†§æ†¬
Freedom in their eyes is only ???
放一把自制æ¦å™¨åœ¨æž•å¤´æ— 以防éšæ—¶æœ‰äººå·è¢
Put a self-made weapon beside the pillow, to prepare against other's attacks at any time
有些人怀疑è€å©†åœ¨å¤–å·æƒ…
Some people suspect their wives are unfaithful on the outside
有些人把家人寄æ¥çš„ä¿¡ä»¶ä¸€å¼ ä¸€å¼ å¥½å¥½æ”¶é›†
Some people one by one treasure the letters sent from family
有些人二åå››å°æ—¶å‡ 乎在床上休æ¯
Some people seems to rest on the bed 24hrs
有些人精神失常 å› ä¸ºå—ä¸äº†æ‰“击
Some people mentally lose is because can't take the trauma
三个月如ç«å¦‚è¼çš„漫长ç‰å¾…已过去
Three month's like fire like tea's slow waiting has already gone by
出狱åŽçš„我得é¢å¯¹ä¸‰å¹´çš„缓刑期
The me who's out of jail faces three years of probation
这也好 一生ä¸ç¬¬ä¸€æ¬¡æ„Ÿè§‰åˆ°å¹¸ç¦
This is good too, first time feeling happiness in my life
但生命ä¸çš„考验何æ¢å¦‚æ¤æˆ‘ä¸æ¸…楚
But I'm not sure if life's challenges are only thus
我ä¸çŸ¥é“ 接下æ¥è¿˜æœ‰ä»€ä¹ˆä¼šå‘生
I don't know what will happen from now
翻开报纸的新闻åˆæ˜¯çœ‹åˆ°æ”¾ç«æ€äºº
Open the news of newspaper once again see arsen and murder
还记得æŸå¹´æ— æ„é—´å‘现的照片
Still remember one year's accidental discovery of 照片(picture???)
上é¢æœ‰é˜¿å§¨å¯¹ç”·äººæ–½è¡Œå£äº¤çš„æ¶å¿ƒç”»é¢
On it has the disgusting image of aunt performing å£äº¤(oral sex or less explicit???) to a man
这简直摧æ¯äº†å¥¹åœ¨æˆ‘心目ä¸çš„形象
This completely destroyed the image of her in my heart
æˆ‘æ— æ³•å¿˜æ€€ç…§ç‰‡ä¸é‚£ç¬‘容多么淫è¡
I cannot forget how skanky the smile in the picture was
我抵抗 胸å£å˜åœ¨ç€ä¸å®‰åŠæƒ¶æ
I resist the insecurity and fear that resides in my chest
我ä¸æ–å¬åˆ°ç—›è‹¦çš„声音在内心怒å¼
I continuously hear the painful sounds screaming in my heart
Chorus 2X
ä¸è®ºæˆ‘èµ°åˆ°å¤©å— ä¸è®ºæˆ‘走到地北
Regardless I walk to the south of the sky, regardless I walk to the earth's north
ä¸è®ºæˆ‘走到哪都è§è¯†åˆ°äººå¿ƒçš„虚伪
Regardless of where I walk to can always encounter people's hypocrisy
It's kinda funny 在人的眼里åªæœ‰money
It's kinda funny in people's eyes there's only money
外表好åƒè¦å¸®ä½ å´åªæ˜¯æƒ³å¸®ä»–自己
Appears to want to help you, but only want to help himself
笑容å¯æŽ¬çš„脸åŽé¢ è°çŸ¥é“是个狼心狗肺
Behind a face full of smiles, who knew is a bastard(wolf's heart dog's guts)
连朋å‹éƒ½èƒ½èƒŒå› å› ä¸ºåªæœ‰å利åˆä»–å£å‘³
Even friends can be betrayed, because only self advantage suits his taste
å¥¹è¯´å¥¹çˆ±ä½ çš„æ—¶å€™è®²çš„æ˜¯é—®å¿ƒæ— æ„§
When she says he loves you it's with full sincerity
æžä¸å¥½å¥¹çˆ±çš„æ˜¯ä½ èº«åŽçš„è£åŽå¯Œè´µ
But it may turn out that what she loves is your fame and fortune behind you
ä½ å¯æ›¾å›°æƒ‘ åœ¨ä½ èº«æ—è°æ˜¯æ•Œæ˜¯å‹
Have you ever doubted who beside you is a friend or foe
å¯¹ä½ è½äº•ä¸‹çŸ³çš„å¯èƒ½å°±æ˜¯ä½ 的挚å‹
The one who kicks you when you're down may be your buddy
ä½ å¯æ›¾ç»åŽ† å½“ä½ æœ€éœ€è¦å¸®åŠ©çš„时候
Have you experienced, when you needed help the most
å¹³å¸¸è·Ÿä½ ç§°å…„é“弟的人都çªç„¶å¤±è¸ª
People who normally call themselves your brothers have suddenly disappeared
亲爱的神 伟大的神
Dear God, noble God
ä½ å¯ä»¥æ€ªæˆ‘æƒ³æ³•å¤ªè¿‡æ— çŸ¥ 但我åªæ˜¯äºº
You can blame that my thoughts are too ignorant, but I'm only human
我ä¸ä¿¡äºº å› ä¸ºäººä¹Ÿä¸ä¿¡æˆ‘
I don't believe in people because people also don't believe in me
ä¸è¦é—®æˆ‘为什么 我最多åªèƒ½å‘Šè¯‰ä½ 这就是我
Don't as me why, the most I can tell you is that this is just me
生命åƒæµ·æµªä¸€æ ·æœ‰æ—¶é«˜æœ‰æ—¶ä½Ž
Life is like the tides, sometimes high sometimes low
ä½ æ˜¯å¦å‘Šè¯‰è‡ªå·±åšå¼ºæ¸¡è¿‡å„ç§æ—¶æœŸ
Have you told yourself to be strong and pass through each type of period
我从命è¿çš„天å°æ”¾çœ¼å´çœ‹ä¸åˆ°æ˜Ÿç©º
From fate's balconey, I cannot see the starry sky
漆黑的天空压在头顶使我ä¸å¾—è½»æ¾
Pitch black sky presses on my head making me not able to relax
åœ¨æˆ‘å¿ƒä¸ æ‰¾ä¸åˆ°ä¸€ä¸ªå®‰é™çš„角è½
In my heart, cannot find a peaceful corner
我ä¸èƒ½å†æ²ˆç¡ä¸‹åŽ» 良心彷佛在笑我
I cannot sleep on, conscience seems to be laughing at me
å®ƒåœ¨è¯´ï¼šæœ‰å‡ å¤©å‡ å¤œè€å¦ˆæ›¾ç»ä¸ºä½ 以泪洗é¢
It's saying: A few days few nights, Mom once cried(used tears to wash her face) for you
è€çˆ¸ä»–åªé¡¾å·±è§ 希望之ç«åªè§ç†„ç
Dad he only cares about what can be seen, hope for fire but only see extinguish
我接起电è¯æ˜¯è€çˆ¸æ†”悴的声音
I pick up the phone and it's Dad's frail voice
虽没è§é¢å´ä¸éš¾æƒ³åƒä»–当时的神情
Although didn't see each other, but not difficult to imagine his expression at the time
刚å¬å®Œä»–最近失业的消æ¯
Just finished listening his recent job loss news
脑海里马上浮现祖æ¯çš„è¯ è¦å‘Šæˆ‘一定è¦äº‰æ°”
In my head immediately appears Grandma's words, cautioning me to must make something of myself
我已ç»æ”¾å¼ƒæ‰€æœ‰å“çš„ç†ç”±
I've already give up all the reasons to cry
å› ä¸ºæˆ‘æ—©å°±ä¹ æƒ¯å†·æ¼ æ´»åœ¨æ— æƒ…çš„çŽ°å®žé‡Œå¤´
Because I've already gotten used to coldly living in the cruel reality
人生è¦å¦‚何起头?改å˜è¦å¦‚何起手?
How will life pick up its head? How will change pick up its hand?
å½“æ´»åœ¨æ³¥æ²¼ä¸ è¦å¦‚何æ‰èƒ½é‡‘盆洗手?
Like living in a mud puddle, how will I able to wash my hands of it all?