I know my writing style is unique and strange, I apologize if you find it hard to read, I am trying my best ♥
To the Mods and GMs, I am more then willing to talk about this privately.And I ask that I be shown alittle compassion( I am not saying there is none!), I am willing to change any amount of this if it doesn't fit guidelines. Please, I am begging you, let me keep this up. Please. I'll change any amount of it if I missed any guideline violations, I don't mean for there to be any, I'm sorry, please give it a full read before you decide to delete if you do.
I started the game like any other, starting on my own, grinding levels and loving a truly amazing and unique story line. I had so much fun those early years. I made friends, I made family, I met partners, some I took to meet family(which never ended working out sadly but I still love him and wish the best for him ♥).
Over the years, the game became all I could afford. I know the game is designed for the community to take breaks but I just couldn't.
I'm going to be more candid then I probably should. I'm not looking for I'm sorrys or for people to feel sorry for me, everyone has their own issues and their own problems, I talk about mine here only to give warning to a community that I love above everything. Explaining this next part will show how much this game means to me.
I am a 30 year old female and an abuse survivor. Over 20 years of dealing with it daily. I say survivor because I did survive, just barely. It stopped when they died.
During that time I met people in the game who still mean everything to me. They helped me pull through some of the worse of it.
I wont go to much into this in effort to keep this post around.
While growing up in the abuse I also fell in love with an anime series/game series/novel series/manga series called .hack//, a series about people getting into special areas in an MMO.
When I first foundout there was something as amazing as exploring the "back rooms" or "Out of Bounds" I was elated to say the least lol I got to play a game with a community that I love and see things no one could ever dream of.
Through lots of research online and exploring the hyper secretive community that is "oobers"(out of bounders), I found this community called Red Pill.
At first they seemed REALLY nice! I had alot of fun exploring all these awesome places really far out there but after awhile problems started to show up. They kept what they called "tech" secret except for a select few that they deemed worthy. I'm sure you could see the problem with that.
The game went from this great amazing community to people gating stuff to only their closest and trusted friends. I did my best to make friends but because of being the alien that I am from what I went through.
That being said, I am super proud of myself. I have come a long way since dealing with that stuff. I'm doing alot better even now then I was in the past. I'm kind, caring and if I see something I say something.
After we didn't agree, I left. Which was the right move for me personally. I reached out to the few in the community that I thought of as friends and loved ones only to be told awful things about me as a person. It was nothing more then a single disagreement for people to decide they were done with me. Which was probably for the best but it really hurt (please before you make comments, put yourself in the situation). All it was was a disagreement and I loved them all deeply. ANYWAYS MOVING ON lol
I kept at it by myself until money became an issue for me and I couldn't play the game anymore and began struggling just to afford food. I loved the game so much and the friends I had on it I could no longer see or be around. My comfort, safety, and security was all taken from me.
During this time Red Pill self-destructed. People couldn't handle the secrets anymore and all the Tech became public.
A new community was formed called OOBcord. I was so proud of them! They broke away from the cultish behavior and became something that was about the community!
After awhile I was finally able to come back to my favorite game and my favorite people. My FC kept me during all this time(sorry crying now, let me pull myself together). They were happy to see. Someone was actually happy to see me. They kept me. I love them so much.
When I came back, I kept going out of bounds when I needed me time in a game I loved more then anything. Sometimes it's hard for me to settle myself down, but going out there. . . it makes it feel like there is still magic in a game that I know like the back of my hand due to playing since 2.1. There is still mystery and wonder and magic, that I can share with friends and family.
Everything I do, is in-game tricks only, I have never and will never use any third party. Nothing I do effects anyone elses play. I make sure there is nothing I do that can possibly effect others in a negative way. I want everyone to have their own fun in the game and if a few of us like exploring the extremes the game has, why not and as someone who suffers from an inflicted mental illness, it does calm me down alot when I really need it.
As far as I see it, it's better then unloading on friends. Everyone has their issues and mine are a bit extreme for any single person or group of people besides myself and my doctors.
I came back and kept oobing, sooner or later someone from Red Pill found me and told me everything that happened. They were incredibly nice to me, showed me a few things, and invited me to join them. I had sooo much fun with her and I was shocked. I honestly never thought the day would come that Red Pill would die. I happily said yes and returned to the new community to see faces who said awful things to me but both sides apologized.
OOBcord is ran by a new group of ex Red Pill members and I knew some of them where just doing as they were told. I was sorry that I left after saying something along the lines of:
"This is really gross, I love you guys deeply but I can't and wont support this behavior, the point of all of this is to share fun, not to act like a cult and decide who does and doesn't get knowledge"
I'm proud of how I acted but how they were treating people wasn't right.
People saw me being abused, people noticed, I saw them notice and do nothing. I agreed with myself that I would never do nothing. If I ever saw anyone being hurt or abused, I would stand up for them. I will give everyone around me what I never had because it's the right thing to do, regardless of throwing myself on the sword for it.
We all made up(except for the ones who couldn't accept the new way of doing things who fought hard to keep their power, which proved futile).
We started exploring and helping each other and making a truly amazing and great community.
Until a few days I noticed one of the admins posting something I cant talk about that breaks rule 9 in a NSFW room, which is normally fine. We had one of those and people didn't have to see what was in there, it was opt-in only. Then whats the problem? The stuff they were posting was against discord ToS. Yea it was that kind of stuff.
That day I met a few people in what is called by the community, "Fake Upper Limsa". It's were you get to Upper Limsa unloaded by breaking in through Lower Limsa. I'm sure a few of you know how now and there are tons of videos up posted by the leadership of OOBcord.
I wanted to share the link with them cause they were suuuuper green to oobing but really seemed to have a passion for it. I couldn't in good faith share the link with them because of that stuff that was being posted, even behind a opt-in only room it was still there and by sharing I'm supporting it.
So I reached out to my friends who were running the community who said "Who cares", "You don't have to be in that room", "you don't have to see it", "Be quiet and stop".
I told them I no longer felt comfortable there and I couldn't support such a place anymore but that I do still care so much about all of them and that I will see them in-game maybe.
Like, I know I am saying it alot but I can never express how grateful I am to them. I doubt I would have been able to survive what I did for so long without the few friends I made there who have now thrown my aside over disagreeing with them two times.
The official stance of the discord is "You are giving me a headache, I am here for my friends, not this.". They should be there for the community to help it grow and form.
It's the same kind of problem that was in Red Pill, protecting the select few, making it safe for just them and those that agree with them. . . I disagreed so I was seen as a nuisance. . .
Here are people that I trusted with everything, who brought me out of the deep dark hole I was in from dealing with what I was and because I didn't feel safe sharing a discord or community with people because of the gross illegal stuff being posted I was thrown away.
After I left I got PMs harassing me, they made a video mocking me and I lost friends. I am currently the target of abuse by them for not wanting to be around nasty stuff and not wanting to share it with others.
They have started heavily advertising "Sit and Lay anywhere", which uses 3rd party. Please don't fall for using it. Please don't use third party stuff.
Please be safe and thank you for reading. I hope to maybe meet friends and make new lives together.
Sincerely from the bottom of my heart, thank you FFXIV and thank you SE for giving me a place I can feel safe (even if there are some problems sometimes lol), and to all those who read this and to all those who are still with me. Thank you so much. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you, thank you ♥
I love you all so much ♥
GMs and Mods, I would be happy to make any changes to this if it doesn't meet guidelines, I really didn't mean to break any if I did. I'm begging you to work with me. I just want to help people keep safe during these hard times.
I wouldn't mind talking about any of this privately either
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To the Mods and GMs, I am more then willing to talk about this privately.And I ask that I be shown alittle compassion( I am not saying there is none!), I am willing to change any amount of this if it doesn't fit guidelines. Please, I am begging you, let me keep this up. Please. I'll change any amount of it if I missed any guideline violations, I don't mean for there to be any, I'm sorry, please give it a full read before you decide to delete if you do.
I started the game like any other, starting on my own, grinding levels and loving a truly amazing and unique story line. I had so much fun those early years. I made friends, I made family, I met partners, some I took to meet family(which never ended working out sadly but I still love him and wish the best for him ♥).
Over the years, the game became all I could afford. I know the game is designed for the community to take breaks but I just couldn't.
I'm going to be more candid then I probably should. I'm not looking for I'm sorrys or for people to feel sorry for me, everyone has their own issues and their own problems, I talk about mine here only to give warning to a community that I love above everything. Explaining this next part will show how much this game means to me.
I am a 30 year old female and an abuse survivor. Over 20 years of dealing with it daily. I say survivor because I did survive, just barely. It stopped when they died.
During that time I met people in the game who still mean everything to me. They helped me pull through some of the worse of it.
I wont go to much into this in effort to keep this post around.
While growing up in the abuse I also fell in love with an anime series/game series/novel series/manga series called .hack//, a series about people getting into special areas in an MMO.
When I first foundout there was something as amazing as exploring the "back rooms" or "Out of Bounds" I was elated to say the least lol I got to play a game with a community that I love and see things no one could ever dream of.
Through lots of research online and exploring the hyper secretive community that is "oobers"(out of bounders), I found this community called Red Pill.
At first they seemed REALLY nice! I had alot of fun exploring all these awesome places really far out there but after awhile problems started to show up. They kept what they called "tech" secret except for a select few that they deemed worthy. I'm sure you could see the problem with that.
The game went from this great amazing community to people gating stuff to only their closest and trusted friends. I did my best to make friends but because of being the alien that I am from what I went through.
That being said, I am super proud of myself. I have come a long way since dealing with that stuff. I'm doing alot better even now then I was in the past. I'm kind, caring and if I see something I say something.
After we didn't agree, I left. Which was the right move for me personally. I reached out to the few in the community that I thought of as friends and loved ones only to be told awful things about me as a person. It was nothing more then a single disagreement for people to decide they were done with me. Which was probably for the best but it really hurt (please before you make comments, put yourself in the situation). All it was was a disagreement and I loved them all deeply. ANYWAYS MOVING ON lol
I kept at it by myself until money became an issue for me and I couldn't play the game anymore and began struggling just to afford food. I loved the game so much and the friends I had on it I could no longer see or be around. My comfort, safety, and security was all taken from me.
During this time Red Pill self-destructed. People couldn't handle the secrets anymore and all the Tech became public.
A new community was formed called OOBcord. I was so proud of them! They broke away from the cultish behavior and became something that was about the community!
After awhile I was finally able to come back to my favorite game and my favorite people. My FC kept me during all this time(sorry crying now, let me pull myself together). They were happy to see. Someone was actually happy to see me. They kept me. I love them so much.
When I came back, I kept going out of bounds when I needed me time in a game I loved more then anything. Sometimes it's hard for me to settle myself down, but going out there. . . it makes it feel like there is still magic in a game that I know like the back of my hand due to playing since 2.1. There is still mystery and wonder and magic, that I can share with friends and family.
Everything I do, is in-game tricks only, I have never and will never use any third party. Nothing I do effects anyone elses play. I make sure there is nothing I do that can possibly effect others in a negative way. I want everyone to have their own fun in the game and if a few of us like exploring the extremes the game has, why not and as someone who suffers from an inflicted mental illness, it does calm me down alot when I really need it.
As far as I see it, it's better then unloading on friends. Everyone has their issues and mine are a bit extreme for any single person or group of people besides myself and my doctors.
I came back and kept oobing, sooner or later someone from Red Pill found me and told me everything that happened. They were incredibly nice to me, showed me a few things, and invited me to join them. I had sooo much fun with her and I was shocked. I honestly never thought the day would come that Red Pill would die. I happily said yes and returned to the new community to see faces who said awful things to me but both sides apologized.
OOBcord is ran by a new group of ex Red Pill members and I knew some of them where just doing as they were told. I was sorry that I left after saying something along the lines of:
"This is really gross, I love you guys deeply but I can't and wont support this behavior, the point of all of this is to share fun, not to act like a cult and decide who does and doesn't get knowledge"
I'm proud of how I acted but how they were treating people wasn't right.
People saw me being abused, people noticed, I saw them notice and do nothing. I agreed with myself that I would never do nothing. If I ever saw anyone being hurt or abused, I would stand up for them. I will give everyone around me what I never had because it's the right thing to do, regardless of throwing myself on the sword for it.
We all made up(except for the ones who couldn't accept the new way of doing things who fought hard to keep their power, which proved futile).
We started exploring and helping each other and making a truly amazing and great community.
Until a few days I noticed one of the admins posting something I cant talk about that breaks rule 9 in a NSFW room, which is normally fine. We had one of those and people didn't have to see what was in there, it was opt-in only. Then whats the problem? The stuff they were posting was against discord ToS. Yea it was that kind of stuff.
That day I met a few people in what is called by the community, "Fake Upper Limsa". It's were you get to Upper Limsa unloaded by breaking in through Lower Limsa. I'm sure a few of you know how now and there are tons of videos up posted by the leadership of OOBcord.
I wanted to share the link with them cause they were suuuuper green to oobing but really seemed to have a passion for it. I couldn't in good faith share the link with them because of that stuff that was being posted, even behind a opt-in only room it was still there and by sharing I'm supporting it.
So I reached out to my friends who were running the community who said "Who cares", "You don't have to be in that room", "you don't have to see it", "Be quiet and stop".
I told them I no longer felt comfortable there and I couldn't support such a place anymore but that I do still care so much about all of them and that I will see them in-game maybe.
Like, I know I am saying it alot but I can never express how grateful I am to them. I doubt I would have been able to survive what I did for so long without the few friends I made there who have now thrown my aside over disagreeing with them two times.
The official stance of the discord is "You are giving me a headache, I am here for my friends, not this.". They should be there for the community to help it grow and form.
It's the same kind of problem that was in Red Pill, protecting the select few, making it safe for just them and those that agree with them. . . I disagreed so I was seen as a nuisance. . .
Here are people that I trusted with everything, who brought me out of the deep dark hole I was in from dealing with what I was and because I didn't feel safe sharing a discord or community with people because of the gross illegal stuff being posted I was thrown away.
After I left I got PMs harassing me, they made a video mocking me and I lost friends. I am currently the target of abuse by them for not wanting to be around nasty stuff and not wanting to share it with others.
They have started heavily advertising "Sit and Lay anywhere", which uses 3rd party. Please don't fall for using it. Please don't use third party stuff.
Please be safe and thank you for reading. I hope to maybe meet friends and make new lives together.
Sincerely from the bottom of my heart, thank you FFXIV and thank you SE for giving me a place I can feel safe (even if there are some problems sometimes lol), and to all those who read this and to all those who are still with me. Thank you so much. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you, thank you ♥
I love you all so much ♥
GMs and Mods, I would be happy to make any changes to this if it doesn't meet guidelines, I really didn't mean to break any if I did. I'm begging you to work with me. I just want to help people keep safe during these hard times.
I wouldn't mind talking about any of this privately either
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